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the first days of spring

listen to the lyrics man...this entire album speaks, I know it's 'old' now but man it hits. nanny's is over I believe - I freakin' love my friends! Don't think I've ever felt more loved/wanted than tonight. When will I stop thinking/dreaming of Brooke everyday?

calling + not calling my ex

Sammy's 1st bday party w/ everyone in Houston was great - I'm beat though. Halloween was surprisingly fun: scored a super cheap scary kids costume at Walgreens at 9p right before heading out. Ended up spending most of the night w/ Linda, Kyle and that crew in kirkwood/reynoldstown bar hopping + at that huge sampson st party - crazy that someone actually lives there. Still surprised that more of my friends didn't care to do anything but I guess that's how it goes as will increasingly go as everyone 'grows up.' That's all for now - back to work. This song just came through my itunes at work - def hit home... - - - She was once mine that smile that shines from the glossy magazine that's stuck inside the Sunday times She was so sweet On Christmas eve With the snow set deep when we went walking through the pines I had just been fired and her first offer had arrived and the new year would see her flying far away from me though I didn't know it a the time W...

500 days of summer

Cabin weekend v1 was great - v2 is already in the works for January. Great friends, good food, college football and too much alcohol - not a bad way to spend a weekend. The run Saturday afternoon was the toughest of my life but I can't wait to do it again in January - serious widow-maker hills man! Jackass 3D w/ eric, lindsay + my wifey was great tonight, as was the pre-show Roly Poly, talking to my Dad + finishing off '500 days' when I got home. The Format is continuing this night of nostalgia/trying to force a new beginning - I know it'll get better, it'll just take time...so much more time than I could have ever imagined. I can't believe she's so far away now. My Dad's starting his new job tomorrow - so much to be thankful for! I even got two cool, well-fitting button down shirts online - good day. I still have three vacation days to burn before the end of the year - need to come up w/ the most spiritually-fulfilling way to kill them...I'm thinkin...

corn maize

The fusion event tonight was just what I needed - such great people. Wish I would've been more involved during college - it def would've kept me from learning some things the hard way. I guess it's better late than never though. I'm going to try to hit up the last three fusion gatherings + def need to get into a small group in January. Streets Alive this afternoon was great too - keep it up Atlanta!

score

Tots united + itp strikers got the W this week & I got 500 days of summer , fantastic mr fox , away we go and crazy heart for twenty bucks at blockbuster - easily four of my favorite movies from the past year or so. I don't even care if I only watch them once - they're just good to have around. [ read a dilbert + go to sleep ]

everything in two's

The last few weeks haven't been bad - I'm not so good at this blogging stuff anymore but I really think it does help to get things out + it's nice to have some type of record of things. I've seen some great shows [SVE, lori mckenna, bare jr, will hoge, of montreal/janelle monae, the national, dbt], gone to a few bama games [this past weekend's loss to SC was tough but we're still in a decent spot to repeat] and been to too many braves game [so many tough losses]. I submitted my GT business school app last week, had my admissions interview yesterday and will find out if I'm into the program by the end of the week - crazy fast! I'm really ready to do something else, a move would be great but there has to be a purpose...and I don't really have one right now. Hopefully this funk that's been hanging over me for the majority of 2010 will lift soon, I just don't understand how to kick it. I can't get over Brooke no matter what I do + she's s...

sve

The most beautiful songs/lyrics I've ever heard - after reviewing her new album, interviewing her and reviewing her show @ 529 you'd think I'm over it...but it's just so good! She closed w/ this song Tuesday night - def one of the best shows I've seen. 'heart in the ground'

touch, feel + lose

It's over man - done, finished, etc - suck it up, be a man + move on. Focus on God + the good and get yourself right. Thankfully it's the best time of the year [fall/football/etc], I'm plenty busy + I have so much to be thankful for. Let's go. [ on a brighter note, I've made it to the semi-finals of the 1st annual aso foosball tournament ]

The Haunting Of This Sacred Romance

Masculine initiation is a journey, a process, a quest really, a story that unfolds over time. It can be a very beautiful and powerful event to experience a blessing or a ritual, to hear words spoken to us in a ceremony of some sort. Those moments can be turning points in our lives. But they are only moments, and moments, as you well know, pass quickly and are swallowed in the river of time. We need more than a moment, an event. We need a process, a journey, an epic story of many experiences woven together, building upon one another in a progression. We need initiation. And, we need a Guide.

mighty to save

Buckhead's 'night of worship' was exactly what I needed tonight - such an amazing night of song + prayer. I've just got to focus on improving myself + my life and continue to lean hard on God. This stuff w/ Brooke still isn't resolved + likely won't be for a while. The way things have happened is driving me absolutely crazy. We still have a few months before the really hard decisions so I've just got to give it to the Lord + focus my efforts on the things in life that I can control. I still believe w/ all of my heart that we'll be together but I guess we'll just have to see what He has planned. The reunion last weekend was fun - wish that more people would've been there but it was still good to see everyone...although I see most of the friends that I care about in Atlanta every week. Hiking/camping w/ bossman + lil bossman this weekend - should def be interesting since it'll be my first 'real camping' experience. We're hiking in 2...

month of may

'worry is really just a form of atheism' - rick warren Man I love that quote - makes everything that we sweat so much seem so insignificant. Just trust in the Lord. My sports teams didn't quite get it done this season[s] - itp was one win away from D2 but blew it, scared hitless got bounced in the first round of the playoffs and media kitchen lost two straight after being the favorite in the semifinals [still by far our best season ever though]. I'd like to knock out my tech grad school app [who are your four favorite dinner guests?] before the big hs reunion this weekend but I doubt it'll happen. Haven't talked to Brooke much lately but the few times we have talked via text/gchat it still seems like our pages aren't that far off. I still believe in us + don't think that I'll be able to force myself to move on until I'm enrolled at Tech and committed to Atlanta for the next three years...but even then I still can't rule out making some drasti...

yeah it is

it's a motherfucker Man it's crazy how things have worked out - I'm sure I'll never understand why but I've just got to trust in God + know that he has a plan. Hillsong last night was so beautiful - def exactly what I needed. I would've given anything to've had Brooke there w/ me but that's not how things are working out right now. Man it's crazy. I feel so pathetic but I still believe in us...ha, and we're not even friends on Facebook anymore. Anyway...here's to grad school at Tech + ATL for several more years.

fight the power

I just talked to someone at comcast + got our internet bill lowered to 25 bucks/month for the next six months [it's been $63/month the past four years] - a tiny victory for the little people -

roll tide

It was really nice to be able to spend so much time w/ my dad this past weekend - gt choked again but I was rooting for bama anyway...the inaugural float of 2010 was a success outside of a little semi-charred white boy. So be careful how you live. Don't live like ignorant people, but like wise people. Make good use of every opportunity you have, because these are evil days. Don't be fools, then, but try to find out what the Lord wants you to do. - Ephesians 5:15-17

infinite arms

The free big boi show was not to be - although that's def b/c we weren't willing to get there an hour or so early to ensure entrance. The hold steady is about to start + 'exit through the gift shop' begins at 1010 - trying to decide which would be best solo. Actually...I'm def going to the hold steady show if I can get in. Everything's about the same - I should have a raise coming my way at ASO next week + I'm still waiting on grad school. Heading to nanny's tomorrow to hang out w/ the Fullers + see Sammy [and Shelley + Mikey ;)] - it's always good times down there, even if it's not what it used to be. Sunday + M-Day will most likely be spent chilling w/ Josh + my family in WR - hopefully we'll get some decent pool time in. Not really sure what I can/should do - at this point I'm just making sure that she knows exactly how I feel + wait until the new city calls. Had one of the most realistic/heart-breaking nightmares last night - literall...

not home anymore

I love shrek + whiskeytown - here's to guy's weekend @ the all-star race in charlotte. I still believe + somehow feel that it's increasingly justified. [ janelle monae is blowing up - that's definitely justified ]

the consumption assumption

31 So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. - matthew 6:31-33 give 10 / save 10 / live 80 - 'guardrails' has def been one of the most powerful + practical series that I've ever heard

i was afraid i'd eat your brains

Getting to see the opening of Drive '10 last night was awesome - such great music + another great message from Andy. Dollar drafts on the patio at Park Tavern always makes for a nice Monday night as well. Joining everyone for dinner for D tonight should be fun + hopefully we'll be able to see the Hawks pull off a game one upset. 'Our imagination so powerfully magnifies time, by continual reflections upon it, and so diminishes eternity . . . for want of reflection, that we make a nothing of eternity and an eternity of nothing.' I'm looking forward to getting out of here + to Charlotte this weekend. Still trying to decide if I should stick around for game three or just head on up Friday night... [i need to go to a junkyard]

out of my head

At least I know for sure that I'm not totally crazy now - there is something to this + I'm not the only one who has these feelings. Not that that changes anything - but it's something...I guess.

suck it up man

as pathetic as it is, I've watched/listened to this video a minimum of 3-4 times a day for the last week or so...for obvious reasons need you now [ the new blistex wrapper is super easy to remove ]

good morning

Def one of the most interesting commutes of my life this morning. I had just turned my bike onto Courtland when I heard police sirens coming from behind me. I then noticed that several cop cars were coming towards me on Courtland [keep in mind that this is a one way road]. I pulled over to the right side of the road to avoid getting hit + heard a loud crash behind me. I turned to see a white sedan rolling across the street w/o a driver in it + several cop cars right on it's tail. All of the cops jumped out of their car + started running towards Django. By this time two cop cars that were coming the wrong way on Courtland had screeched to a stop a few feet in front of me + had also joined the foot race. Some dude had apparently been getting chased by the cops, gotten rammed by a cop car right behind me, jumped out of his moving vehicle + made a run for it. I saw the guy cut through a parking lot + begin to run up the back stairs of Django w/ several cops behind him when a few of the...

guardrails

guardrails: a personal standard of behavior that becomes a matter of conscience 'walk w/ the wise + become wise, for a companion of fools suffers harm' - proverbs 13:20 [g uess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all]

afraid of everyone

Pretty much worse case scenario for a triathlon [esp my first] - constant rain + the worst blisters of my life...I'll take it, we're still surprised we were able to get it in at all. 26th place [out of 31 in 25-29 age group] swim [600 m] 15:48.2 transition 1 ? bike [11.2 mi] ? transition 2 ? run [3.1 mi] 20:45.9 total 1:22:22.23

bloodbuzz

The big bang was a blast - def something missing + it didn't end on a great note [too many idiots] but at least the weather was nice this year. I had the most amazing video/voice chat ever on Monday - def one of the best hr + 45 min of the past several months. There has to be a reason. The white out @ Philips was fun - can't wait to see what the hawks can do against the magic in round two. We got to Taco Mac just in time to see the bravos' [Glaus, J-Hey and McLouth] come-from-behind win against the phils - cheers and high fives all around! Although Philadelphia did win the next two... Leaving work early today to pack up my bike, tri and camping stuff to head out to Carrollton for tomorrow morning's triathlon w/ JB, Eric and David. Looks like it's going to rain all weekend but hopefully we can get the entire race in + make the best of camping. I'm def not looking forward to the swim but I think I'll be alright + can hopefully make up some time during the bike...

white collar

whoa...my hair is short [like hs short] she didn't quite follow the pic that I showed her but I'll take it [ lost in translation ]

sour jelly belly's

Trader Joe's rocks - I stopped by there to grab some simpler times [it's been too long] after giving blood today + the woman that checked me out gave me some free candy b/c my bday was the day before her's - so cool. The big bang is shaping up to be a record breaker - 350+ tickets, 18+ kegs, 2 pinatas, the annual homerun derby, cornhole, etc...I'm looking to hit up dogwood before the roly-bots show tomorrow night + criminal for RSD before heading to the bang saturday. Church + the 420 fest Sunday should round things out nicely. All of these usual events def won't be as much fun as they have the past few years but I'm still looking forward to what's in store. [clipping in w/ egg beaters has changed my life]

decisions

Everything came back fine today so that's good - don't have to worry about it again for another five to ten years. It was nice having Dad up here for a little while, even though we didn't get to do much. He's def not as big a fan of la fonda as I am - I need to get him to branch out a bit when it comes to eating... I've got a lot to figure out over the next few weeks + months. It's so hard to make myself move on + make decisions w/ only myself in mind but I guess I don't have a choice. I still truly believe that things will work out but I can't hold off on making my next move. I just need to gather as much info as I can and, most importantly, continue to pray about everything. I know that God will lead me where I'm supposed to go - I've just got to trust him + follow his will. - charlotte v atlanta v ? - mba v new job field - online v campus I guess I need to start by re-taking the gmat sometime w/n the next month or two + talk to as many of my f...

zatarain's

Just made some jambalaya - prob the first time I've made any of this since college...so long ago now. Not looking like castleberry is going to happen tonight - had some plans w/ friends who ended up bailing [again]. That's how it goes though - just more confirmation that it's time to make my next move. Tomorrow should be a fairly busy day: converse open gym from 8a-noon + volunteering w/ big peach [s3] @ the homeless shelter from 1p - 4 or so. Hopefully we'll get the guys together for some park grilling/chilling/sports tomorrow afternoon + ideally the trashers game tomorrow night. Everything is TBD though, of course. I'm looking forward to having dad up here Sunday to hang out w/ while I drink my prep, watch the masters, enjoy a clear liquid diet and go to church. At least I get a day off on Monday - it'll be a 'fresh start' @ the very least. My mom's description of Janelle Monae: ' ' wow, she has an amazing voice.......love her music!!!!!!...

either way

Things are beginning to get better w/ time - I still don't understand why things are the way they are but I guess I never will. I'm doing my best to move on, focus on myself [physically, spiritually, job/education-ally], rely on/trust in God + know that everything will work out regardless of what happens. I love Janelle Monae - def one of the best shows I've seen in a long time. So glad that Josh came up to go w/ me. She's one of the smartest, creative, unique + genuine artists around right now. The show @ SOB was absolutely amazing - packed house, great presentation, Big Boi performed 'Tightrope' w/ her, balloons fell from the ceiling during 'Many Moons' and she even came to the afterparty + danced all night [in b/n taking pictures w/ any fan that asked]. Such an amazing artist - I can't wait to see where she goes from her...although it is sad knowing that I'll never be able to see her in such an intimate venue again. Now if I could just stop pr...

happy easter

Savior I come Quiet my soul remember Redemptions hill Where Your blood was spilled For my ransom Everything I once held dear I count it all as lost Lead me to the cross Where Your love poured out Bring me to my knees Lord I lay me down Rid me of myself I belong to You Oh Lead me, lead me to the cross You were as I Tempted and tried Human The word became flesh Bore my sin and death Now you're risen Everything I once held dear I count it all as lost To your heart To your heart Lead me to your heart Lead me to your heart - - - Headed to WR tomorrow for Easter weekend - it'll def be nice to be home w/ my family for a few days. It sucks to miss the Will Johnson living room show but it's worth it to be back home for longer. - the counting crows still rock/get to me every time

2nd out of 16

I've already clinched victory in our pick 'em before the Duke game's even started thanks to West Virginia + Michigan St - 3 out of 4 would be nice but I'll take the 225 any way I can get it. I'm having a really hard time w/ things right now - just seems like everything is falling apart at the same time that I thought everything would be coming together. I know it'll all work out - it's just going to take a while. Some big changes are coming in my life + I've just got to pray constantly and trust God to lead me where I should go. My family is so amazing - I'm so thankful for everything that they do for me, even more so than I always am. Josh + Celenia are coming up for the Major Lazer/Sleigh Bells show tonight so that'll be fun + keep me busy for a little while. I've had a hard time eating + sleeping the last few days but hopefully that will change before long. It's so hard but I've just got to trust in the Lord + lean on my family and...

4th row center

It really sucks to miss the wilco show tonight - the money from the tickets is nice but I'd much rather have gone w/ my best friend. The Girl Talk show will be a decent backup + I've tried to fill my weekend up pretty well so we'll see how everything goes. I had five teams [michigan st, washington, wv, duke and st mary's] make it to the sweet 16 so I'm in pretty good shape so far. We'll see how things look after Sunday...

march madness pick 'em

Here's who I ended up w/ in our 16th annual pick 'em. I drew #3 + chose to pick last instead of 2nd so we'll see how that decision works out for me... 1] duke 2] west virginia - 4] wisconsin 4] maryland - 7] byu 5] michigan st - 8] texas 10] ga tech - 10] st mary's 10] missouri - 11] san diego st 11] washington - 13] houston 14] sam houston st - 15] morgan st 16] arkansas-pb We'll see how things look after the 1st round - I'm banking on BYU to cause a ruckus in all of my pools.

what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. (2 Cor. 4:16–18) - so awesome -

tiny victories

Finally figured out to swim the [more] proper way tonight - only took three trips to the GT pool. Now I just have to figure out how to swim 600+ m nonstop w/n the next five weeks...at least I've got this running + biking stuff down. Still working + hoping that I'm not the 7/9/11th wheel while camping that weekend.

bright spot

The ITP Strikers showed resolve + stamina tonight - after going down a man while trailing 3-2 in the 2nd half they came back to score two unanswered goals for the come-from-behind win. - i'll take it

sad eyes

- so sad / beautiful - feels about right right now though. - - - - - - - - - - - Pray in the Spirit at all times and on every occasion. Stay alert and be persistent in your prayers for all believers everywhere. Ephesians 6:18 What an ideal + amazing way to live - I've got to remember to keep coming back to this verse. I've really been trying to live each day in a more constant conversation w/ God - you can def tell a difference in how you feel + act. It just feels good to know that you always have someone that close to you, esp when it feels that you can't truly depend on anyone else.

Hey I've got an idea...

How about skipping your soccer match [for no apparent reason as it turns out], driving to Athens by yourself at 930p, somehow eating a ticket to a sold out show at the 40 watt, bouncing around for ~1.5 hrs, driving back to Atlanta, sleeping for 4.5 hours before heading to work + yet not regret anything? Yeah - let's do that!